Winter

Its cold out here. I can't even felt my blood running through my vein. Less planning, nowhere to go. Everything covered with white snowy sadness. I felt empty, dead to be precise. O summer, please come quick, i need your warmth, I need your shine, i need your smile. O sun, burst your light, punch your heat, so that i can be alive. O God, only you, to whom I seek belief, to You I floored my head to, I seek forgiveness and repent, give me a chance to live my life to the fullest, give me Your will to be alongside my dearest, to be warmth, to feel like to-get-her, to be Love. I begged You, the Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Ummu Hani

I didn't looked at her, everyone knew her traits. But i look from a different perspectives. Her Father. His shouting and crying so bad. His daughter is physically challenged from that on. Its dead touching to see a man cried that hard. Is it normal? Why not her mother's the one who's shouting around like crazy? Why should be him? Some man, huh? This guy really focusing on his family 'future' until he neglected the needs of his daughter when she's in pain. He took it lightly. This is the result. All work and no fun. He should be sorry and been put at blame of the lost of her daughter eyesight. Because he takes thing lightly. Where he shouldn't. He should bring her for check up earlier. Not after she's fainted. Seriously man, don't take anything lightly of your love ones. Or end up losing. That's cry of a looser. What a pity. And, I think all men, if not all, small portion of it, takes ting lightly, like him, like me. Those your loves need concerned, need touch, need care, not only stability, not only afford-ability. Future can wait, current need to take seriously too.

Fuhhh

HECDARNTIC! Thats the terminology popup from my head to describe my daily routine since moving on. I guess thats what you get when you ask too much. I felt lucky because Darl is there, she help me ease the weight, but yet, still, i'm burdened. In this new home (if i may called that home) there is only one thing that I'm blessed to be good at, I think, but still, i play catch up. Acronym. Everything is coded. Everything is shorthanded. One thing for sure, there are so many things to do, but, I don't know where to begin with. I just play consumed the thing that is on desk, and try not to leeway around much. This new home is not the kind of place i dreamed of because theres to much food, literary, TOO MUCH! The supply really exceed demand. This is bad for my waist as it grows rapidly then ever. I love the people, hope they love me too. I tried so hard to blend. Hope they can accept me in the family. Fuhh. I'm at the state where my scapula, shoulders and vertebrate all at sore. Hope to get off with this transition as quickly as i can. Not to impressed, just to complete my test. Cream of the cream they said. But i don't really think so. I just wanted to live my life to the fullest and boom my potential, if there's any.

Startup Pack

December 20th 2010 was the starting block. I'm officially a person who can help. Really. Finally. Something for my parent to smile about. Bar has been placed for my siblings to jump, higher. But still, i'm kind of hesitated. Could i leave a mark? Will i make an impression? After the hectic 4 days, i still and seemingly felt "Small".

The day i step my foot on the court, the handsomeness of others doesn't really shows. Yes, i DID mingle around with others, my way (while having a butt and try to fit in). So what? I'm a smoker. And i'm lease proud of it (not literally). They kind of accepting and doesn't get so deep in presenting their wonderful background. Something that I won't ever had on my resume.

Until, it all been exposed during the orientation. Fuhh! These people is inhuman. I felt like i'm a joke and nobody. They already somebody even before they enter the service. Why the hell does they quiting for "This"? Is it because they want to be governing instead of being governed? Or is it they expecting undisputed power that most likely will be, if not a guarantee? Or are they dreaming of ugly wealth that exposed widely? What is it actually?

Me? I don't even know how to do a job. What I firmly know is that i want to do a job. Yes. That's all. Apart from that, I just want to be apart of something. Something great. Maybe this is the beginning of something great. Something I can look forward to and work (literally) hard for it.

I already making a linkages with some of them. Vice versa. I hope, no, I freaking darn it hope, I could change my attitude. Dol, speak up la. You been blessed with Noble Prize Winners head. Why keep it for yourself. If you want to be great, this is the place.

Its still in my eyes, the thing that En Amin told me, "don't be a fish that swim around other fish, you need to overtake the other fish". Its an open sea out there.

Revisited

This are the link to article on how to lose your weight composed by my dearest fiancée. It was 2009 back then. For some people, its happening. But most people, its just one of those reason to keep on piling.

http://bupink.blog.friendster.com/2009/02/real-people-real-result/

Here's a thought, i think there's a better way to reduce, if not to lose, some of that unwanted Cholesterol, Calories, Excess Glucose, or even Toxic Urination. How? Simple. Run.

Venue : Tasik Rekreasi, Seksyen 7, Shah Alam, Selangor.

Suggested Time : 1800 - 1900

Frequency : Everyday if you motivated enough

Why? : Here's why.

In life, we need to have something, doing anything, that we enjoyed the most. As a men, we have needs. One of them is practically to see beauty. In our office, we do have some selective beauty with virtual ranks. Yet, most of them is currently unavailable. Or maybe, we to shy to even ask, "Hi Huda, Good Morning", or "Nadia, you look extremely fine today". So, in order to avoid humiliation of post-say-hi, and lowered confidence because of shabby looking physic you have there, you sit back at your place and didn't socialize. This actually, not only applied to soloist, but it also can be practiced by anyone, any man, looking for option, or even maybe, an additive to your sour ties.

So what?

Running makes you feel free, unless you are running with someone else, in different gender, the suitable term used is motivated. There are many reason why you should run.

1. Running alone - The beauty might falls anytime of these almost 2 KM course. At any moment, u'll get hitched. Just stay focus, small steps, constant velocity, deep breath, let loose. Then u'll feel worth it? That's not all. Look around Dol, all babes and less dick. Select all you want. That's what to look forward to, going forward and never stop, all of a sudden, you already 5 laps. Thats have to burn, not only rubber, but also all those unwanted element in your body. I'll bet you'll be stinkier then a pig! But thats OK. Girls love the smell of men sweat, it makes them horny (not scientifically proven). Well, So what? You get all the freedom that you want. Release, fresh, peace of mind, and Eye too. How it makes you feel, when tight A(ss) crossed, Bouncing B(oobies) past by and Sexy C(urve) overtaking while you catch your breath and gain some momentum? This A, B, C, will stay there, unless, you want it to stop. Can you tell me, how does that didn't tickle you to comeback tomorrow and experience it again, and again?

Frankly speaking, thats only the motivation. So what? The objective is completed plus, you enjoy it. Life's good!

2. Run in pair - It doesn't matter whether it is XX+XY or XX+XX or XY+XY. The point is, one of you will make the other look good. Even better, if you are the one. So, be extra careful when choosing your partner. This people beside you can also be a booster. A cross-gender will suit perfectly. At this situation, we can be sexiest. So what? Lets proof which of the God creation reign supreme. Not until, the other run out of gas and start to make cute face or even sulking up because of get left behind. But its fun though. For a beginner, you can start of with someone who just like you, haven't been sweating for ages. Then, change, accordingly. So, you wont get upset. And increased level of confident. Yet still, you can see all the A, B, C referred formerly. So what? We left our partner, look good, its time to move on..

3. Run in Herd - Not recommended.

4. Run-in-bloody-striking-soft-comfort-brand-new-shoes - I come up with this post trying to persuade my fiancée to bought me 1 of this. Hope she can here me begging for this. Or anyone out there who appreciate me the most, please, i'm begging you, i want this!

Its just another reason for you to get something expensive without expecting babble. Its health purposes. "buat ape nak berkira sangat kan"..

So guys. Start having a girlfriend, ask her to buy the running shoes and

START RUNNING!

My Islamic: Rahsia melalui darah

My Islamic: Rahsia melalui darah: "ha???darah pn ade rhsia ke???ape rahsia darah tu??jom kita cek..apakah darah si dia... ;)"

My Islamic: Renungkan sekejap

My Islamic: Renungkan sekejap: "Hargailah ape yg ALLAH swt anugerahkan kpd kita..sntiasalah ucapkan syukur ke atas nikmatNya..semoga bermanfaat.. ;)"