Friday, December 24, 2010

Startup Pack

December 20th 2010 was the starting block. I'm officially a person who can help. Really. Finally. Something for my parent to smile about. Bar has been placed for my siblings to jump, higher. But still, i'm kind of hesitated. Could i leave a mark? Will i make an impression? After the hectic 4 days, i still and seemingly felt "Small".

The day i step my foot on the court, the handsomeness of others doesn't really shows. Yes, i DID mingle around with others, my way (while having a butt and try to fit in). So what? I'm a smoker. And i'm lease proud of it (not literally). They kind of accepting and doesn't get so deep in presenting their wonderful background. Something that I won't ever had on my resume.

Until, it all been exposed during the orientation. Fuhh! These people is inhuman. I felt like i'm a joke and nobody. They already somebody even before they enter the service. Why the hell does they quiting for "This"? Is it because they want to be governing instead of being governed? Or is it they expecting undisputed power that most likely will be, if not a guarantee? Or are they dreaming of ugly wealth that exposed widely? What is it actually?

Me? I don't even know how to do a job. What I firmly know is that i want to do a job. Yes. That's all. Apart from that, I just want to be apart of something. Something great. Maybe this is the beginning of something great. Something I can look forward to and work (literally) hard for it.

I already making a linkages with some of them. Vice versa. I hope, no, I freaking darn it hope, I could change my attitude. Dol, speak up la. You been blessed with Noble Prize Winners head. Why keep it for yourself. If you want to be great, this is the place.

Its still in my eyes, the thing that En Amin told me, "don't be a fish that swim around other fish, you need to overtake the other fish". Its an open sea out there.


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