Obsessed

Its not like I'm that good at tennis, I just started months back. Just a single racket though. Sloppy, inconsistent ground stroke, soft serves, untidy backhand. It equals to, loser. Yet, I just love the game. And most of all, I love the shoes. This is the way to go. Just my type of shoe. Its going to be another long month this January. $orry. hahaha. 

The Wanted $

Come of late, I quite frequently be at this state, a state where, bank account that show withdrawal limits, yet, my shopping list keep on growing. Why is that? I don't know. Maybe its a sign of aging. Like wrinkle, the line appears to be numbered and countless each day, even with the most expensive of soap we put on. I know, I'm not the only one, each one of us has been, recently, or currently, at the moment, experiencing the same exact phenomena. It is good to be rich. You don't have to think about tomorrow. But, there's no thrill to that. Work something out. It'll come. Patient is key. (SODAPKAN HATI JO!)

                  

 

I admit, this is not far to catch, yet, I need to think about tomorrow. Why? Because I don't have a bank which won't show my withdrawal limits. But its OK. This is not far. Not too far. Not that far. Just within range. Just. 

What will BE, will BE

Mizuno BE! 

Ever heard of this phrase? Of course, que serra serra is how its completed. Saturday ago has been my day out with purpose. Just to stroll around and waste the sand on the clock, until, i met him!
God has created something that really catch my eye and my heart pounce like crazy, and it stick like magnet when i tried to fit it in. Ever since, I always heard this whisper in my ears, this vision on my eyes, that tells me, " Hoi, beli sudah!". It sounded and appeared clearer and in high definition as the days goes by. It triggers my wallet and it speaks by itself, "You should have a new hobby, something that is costly". Instead of  golf, this is the way forward. So, I guess, its time for me to write my wife the most poetic of appeal letter, for me to have this hobby, shoe collector! This is great! hahaha. Sayang, please be kind.

I'm leaving you, you hurt me so bad

It has been long, our relationship had reach its climax. Today, March 22nd, 2011, i vow herewith, to let you go. And hopefully this time its for good. Yes, you never betray me, for the past years, but being attached to you, is wrong. Anyway, anyhow, its wrong. Yes, he makes me realize. I need to let you go because he is not attached with your kind, and i'm trying to be better than him. He knows everything that he do, he can change the world by doing nothing. I can do better, by starting to break up with you. Good bye, and i'm going to miss you, you are there when i'm in need. But happiness is not something that you find, its something you create. I want to create something else, minus you.

Dreaming

Its a habit maybe. Or its just me destined to be like that. Every now and then, my dreams vapors just like that, even how many times I try to create it. Maybe I need to be extra firm in making decision and taking risk. Or otherwise, I'll let more people stumping on my forehead and get past through me easily. I can be very pushy to others, asking them to bought me this and that, and yet, there is no togetherness involves, not at all. Maybe some. But this time, I really want this, let it be bankruptcy to my name soon, but i need to have this. Something, i think, i shared a common interest. The trigger is there, the target is locked, but the will to pulled it, to share the same commitment and liability wasn't like what is drafted. I need to take something new for a change. Alone. Better off, then being hold back with uncertainties. I want to wake up, i'm tired sleeping, before its evening, and my head spinning, I better get off and turns thing right.