High Hill

Overwhelming. I should say. I been in a world that no barriers holdings. Or, they just plain don't care about the walls that built to protect. As a matter of fact, its an experience that anyone, perhaps, desire to be in. As for myself, it does tickle. A lot. My brain couldn't stop dreaming. Dreaming of something that I've never ever think i could get to. It makes me realize what an enormous world that haven't been explore. At this state, I just play it simple, ready for anything. Because I know, its a Big, Big, Big world out there. We don't know what awaits us tomorrow, in future. As far as i'm concerned, my life is OK, just OK. I think. Plenty to run for. A lot to catch up. If there's an earthquake, its fine. I'll live. Happiness is created. Its created. I'll choose to be OK. Until then...

Dar...

An icon should i describe you. A mommy gonna be with charisma. You really knew exactly what you want, what you need, what you have to avoid, what you don't like, what ever. You just great. I don't know. Maybe. Some how, I can only see you on the surface. Person with courage. I don't know what its like to be your husband, how you treat him, fairly. Is it like a normal ship? Could you run a typical husband and wife relationship with minor - i meant really small - confrontation? I think so. You are very diplomatic, in any way, yet still, deadly. I still remember when i talk shit in your social network account, straight forward, YOU REMOVE ME FROM YOUR FRIEND LIST! Cis ko. Then I respect it. Come out with a bunch of apology. Simple and straight. But in a soft nicest manner. It must be blessing to be your husband or otherwise, it must be fun. Another thing, the tone when you pick up the phone from him. That explain what sweet, super sweet means. "Baby!" Excited, enthusiast, extremely gorgeous voice I've ever heard. If my sight is not mistaken, you just defined a perfect women with responsibility means. The priority is clear. The Do's and Don'ts all sets. Not to mention, very pretty. Indeed. hahaha.

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Headache

Its 7 Eid maybe. Not so normal working days as not everyone appeared at the partition. And me, still not in the mood for any head-working. my head is burning. Swings. Could not focus. Is it because what i did this morning? it just a slow jog, even though its 6 in the morning. my body felt worked. Good. Sweat. But my head, right after i reached home, i felt something wasn't right. It's usually lasted for hours, but this, its already the whole day at the office. I felt like eating everything , anything on the plate. But, it'll disturbed my so called diet deal with my homie-lovely. It just started la dol! Give my jaw a chance to have some crunch-less morning. maybe my head could not accept what i did this morning or to my jaw. Maybe the brain just could not processed my sweat-full morning and rice-less lunch. Or maybe, a big maybe, the three musketeers of Cerebrum, cerebellum and the medulla oblongata, just need RICE to operate, coz i'm MALAYSIAN! aduh, sakit kepalaku!

Spark

Every time her eyes meets mine, I can see courage, hard fought to belief, that future is at stake, happiness to be destined, alongside me. Is this torture? I believe its not. Its a test of resilient. Just in case we hit rock bottom, there's always path hidden underneath the rockiness. I hope...i don't want to..i want to believe, that this is the right way. I wont set any bar, but for certain, my heart sparkling, and i know, when it does, I could conquer this mountain obstacle. Happy it is, happy it will then. There are no great life to be told without any failure, there aren't. But something for certain, the effort that been put in is all that matters, the end result could differ. I'm loving it, i'm loving you, and if there's any let down, i'm not saying that I want it, but i'm just telling that i'm all ready to face it, which makes me very gentle in touching the skin so that no damage that cause bleeding.

Doubt.

Ya Allah, Ikhlaskanlah aku. What's wrong with my brain? Is there something wrong with my liver? It is the right thing to do, yes. But why i felt something wrong when i don't even get 1/10 from the pie? Its not like i'm asking for something heavy, just a small portion, just a bit, just a taste of sweetness to remove all this, disturbance, grudge, uneasiness. Why did i kept thinking bout this? There's so many unresolved matters, unanswered questions. Ya Allah, Ikhlaskanlah aku.

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah Lagi Maha Mengasihani,

Katakanlah Dia adalah Allah, Maha Esa. Allah itu tempat pergantungan. Dia tidak beranak dan tidak diperanakkan. Dan Tiada setara denganNya, seorang pun.

I'm leaving you, you hurt me so bad

It has been long, our relationship had reach its climax. Today, March 22nd, 2011, i vow herewith, to let you go. And hopefully this time its for good. Yes, you never betray me, for the past years, but being attached to you, is wrong. Anyway, anyhow, its wrong. Yes, he makes me realize. I need to let you go because he is not attached with your kind, and i'm trying to be better than him. He knows everything that he do, he can change the world by doing nothing. I can do better, by starting to break up with you. Good bye, and i'm going to miss you, you are there when i'm in need. But happiness is not something that you find, its something you create. I want to create something else, minus you.